A few weeks ago, a string of Magpies recommended in unison a podcast featuring Brene Brown and Dr. Harriet Lerner on the subject of forgiveness. Several of you indicated that the podcast had repaired a relationship, or otherwise shed meaningful light on a fraught friendship. Intrigued, I tuned in, and — wow. It is a deeply worthy listen. For one thing, I found unexpected catharsis relating to an apology I received a long time ago that has always felt more like a scab than a scar — that is, there is something gesturing at recovery that lives there but has never quite given way to new skin. Tears rolled down my cheeks as I listened. I cried at the shock of feeling seen after all this time. I cried because I had been telling myself (and, frankly, been told by the other party) that “I just need to get over this.” And here, on the podcast, were two wise and empathetic women telling me: “Not so fast — your feelings are legitimate. Here’s how the apology should have gone.”
Perhaps more meaningfully, though, I spent some time reflecting on my own botched apologies and habits around forgiveness. I have thought about so many of the brilliant points in this podcast since hearing them (especially Dr. Lerner’s observation that “That’s OK” is not the appropriate answer to “I’m sorry”; when someone apologizes meaningfully, we must practice saying, “Thank you,” two words that are tremendously difficult to issue at a moment like that, as they acknowledging that we have been hurt and are due the apology!), but mainly this:
An apology asks for nothing.
An apology does not ask for forgiveness. It is not a means to an end — e.g., “OK, if I apologize, we can just let this whole thing blow over” — and it makes no demands of the other party. A true apology acknowledges wrongdoing, accepts the legitimate feelings of the hurt party, and attempts repair.
This has been a true jumping off point for me. I rarely have trouble asking for forgiveness because I hate being a state of disequilibrium or friction with those I love and am always eager to set things right and smooth the tablecloth, but — a true apology now seems to me an entirely different beast. Again I write: a true apology asks for nothing. It is unconditional and nonstrategic. It is meant for the other party but it is more about an internal change on my end, a “seeing” that I have done wrong and an acceptance of that failure as my responsibility.
I have miles to go, but feel charged by the conversation.
I can’t recommend the podcast enough, but if you lack the time, you might find this quick sheet featuring Harriet Lerner’s nine essential ingredients of a true apology illuminating.
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